The smarting in his eyes reminds him part of the reason why he run in the first place, back when he remembered. If there was one person who could reach through anything, it was Steve. The brother he had. Or his progenitor had. And there is so much that all he wants to do is hide form Steve. Because he is ashamed of it.
But... the last part gets a dry, quick laugh out of him. "Hey, half the time I wonder if I'm a real person and don't get around to wondering if I'm the real Bucky, if that helps?"
No, it doesn't. But hopefully it will be a little bit sidetracking.
It does, however, help him focus, and he straightens slightly, tightening his right hand around Steve's arm. "I'll try not to let you down again." Because his past... it isn't anything but letting them down. Steve and Bucky.
"Hey, if I ever start acting erratic and wrong or, you know, backsliding, you'll--" stop me "--let me know, right?" Not that he thinks Steve won't, really. But if the request comes from him, it'll weigh less on Steve. And he's carrying more than enough already.
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But... the last part gets a dry, quick laugh out of him. "Hey, half the time I wonder if I'm a real person and don't get around to wondering if I'm the real Bucky, if that helps?"
No, it doesn't. But hopefully it will be a little bit sidetracking.
It does, however, help him focus, and he straightens slightly, tightening his right hand around Steve's arm. "I'll try not to let you down again." Because his past... it isn't anything but letting them down. Steve and Bucky.
"Hey, if I ever start acting erratic and wrong or, you know, backsliding, you'll--" stop me "--let me know, right?" Not that he thinks Steve won't, really. But if the request comes from him, it'll weigh less on Steve. And he's carrying more than enough already.